I don't really know.

Yes , I'm wrong , I admit.


But only in certain ways , not all the ways.


Yes , I'm no think about you , I had no effort , I had no that will.


I had nothing , I'm useless.



I really dunnoe what can I do , and what can I help u , and what can I change?



I lie u , not because I really want to lie you.


I just don't want let you know how r me.



U say u know , but dunnoe is until this level.


Yes , I really don't want you know im reached this level.


Cause this is not your false , and i sure that will only be TEMPORARY.


I just adjusting it to my self , to adapt , to learn with , to go through.


I just don't want feel this also is ur resposible.


I'm not really want to lie u , trust me.


this level , will be the top , I promise.


Sorry.


I'm really a useless friend , useless person.


so ?  



At least , mt first decided to stay is for you ,  is because of you . REALLY.


If you still feel me try to explain my false , try to escape .

Sorry , my false to make u feel that.

And i can chg nothing.



I still mind , in all the ways.


Don't just looking at me , you know me.


Sometimes if some beautiful lies can let u escape , just step over it .

It's beautiful.


But when you try to peel off its cover , it getting ugly , and out of your expectation.


So , I still can change nothing , still be the same , STILL only can be the same.




Mayb sometimes , I let myself to comfort until forget the pain I had go through.