A day mean.

Never let someone let you down , never be the one let others down.

Blanked mind.

Don't know whats really need to been appear in here.


Today - Friday.

My tuition replace class for Sunday.

From last December till now , every Sunday I'd busy for my tuition , wake early to prepare , and others .  I never sleep late in my 2012 calendar. Sometimes , I've really been tired , even I feel myself need to rest , and mayb later I'll collapse.

But being flashback now , I'm strong enough to go through , to get away from that.

I set the level which not really the level to show myself out , to push myself up.

I'm just too let mine to stay in the comfort zone.

The pressure enough.  Or just a little bit more.


This Sunday , I'm follow my plan which to attend the education fair where located at KLCC.

This really in my plan but the details I never go through , never attentive to care about the details , timing , transport , wearings and others so.

I can't let my self to be the one always last minute or the one only can action in the last minute.

To show my intelligence enough , to show the neverplan for perfect timing , perfect action.

This all I need to show , but I pay a price more than that.

I enough to be the past .

Be the one to change the one.


Erm , my Sunday will never be empty.


Today , I start my action , start my plan , to change , to learn to change .

I find out that , when I'm alone or need to settle out somethings with only myself , I can be systematic if it really on my plan , follow my plan.

But for the out of plan , I will be absolutely chaos.

My brain was not prepare for the out of plan , EMERGENCY.

My body , my nerve system , brain control system never give response to.

Then, I'm not allow , unable to.

Then I'm in the midst of hardship , in the river of waterfalls , on the hollow ways with no directions.

So , I'm carefull.  To never let it happen , and expect that anythings , everythings will happen , then everythings is in my plan , in my hand , in my mind.

Then I'm able to hold the situation , hold myself to.


And the moment you're here , the sense of security too strong that you gave to me.

Then I'm not really pressure that the things flow out of my plan.

So , I'm relax and let every possible happens.

And you'll solve it together with me.

Not your quick witted , but yours' as a soul that accompany to tell me , to let me sense that eveytime , everythings , every problem I'm not just the one and only , so , I've to really feel mine to made it , to solve it , to go through it.

I knew , that was a psycological problems.

Then , now I've to stop , have to really cure it.


1.45pm my mum fetch me go to leisuremall bus stop to get the bus.

Once I open door , I saw jia ping outside , and asked her whether same destination she want to went to.

On the way , got a bus U40 follow us by side.

Then , we get to race!

My mum put me down to the station then I straight went up to the bus.

I tought it was so full , but the real was not.

Chose a better place , settle down.

Listen my music by chance that music I'm hearing now too.--Wolfang Amadeus Mozart - #25 G Minor KV183 Allegro con brio

Its was nice! I'm dragged into the world of thats.

My soul , my action all follow ups.

My eyes opened , but saw nothings.

The deep in my soul , empty , nothings else.

Then I got in my addmath class earlier.

That half hour , don't know how I spend.

No ones I know. The lonely and helpless feelings appear with its strength in the deep of my heart.

Then I need to keep myself up for the lessons , for my appearance , for my pretend , for my conceal.

Ends up this torture moment , the lesson start.

Concentrate , pay attention.

After that was my physic class.

Chapter 2 --Electricity.

My school started this chapter a long times ago.

But I really don't know what the hell she teach , not even nothings , I feel that is a waste of time , of paper , of ink , even my energy to write that , and the torture to stay at the windtight lab , with wrong sitting posture , which the table to short and the chair is even too high. The situation really uncomfortable for me , so , I hate the periods of labs , I hate the moment in labs.

But this tuitor well. for me and worth more than that.

Last year physic tuition fees for RM 50. I don't remember a thing.
I'm not saying the teacher problems , I only said I didn't remember , I my mine problems.

Then when start this , I only know whats physic really and get into , and love into.

Then , math class turn.

I've miss for one week!  My fault and it will be the last time.

Okay , start.

The teacher was extremely 38 , pro , funny.

Haha~ I'm just laugh enough .

No such stress exists.

So , when I miss my math class, I don't really feel I can catch it up in any reference book so.

His way are special and among that I loved the most was he's got a study in psycology , and always share to us.

Yes , It is more that worth to.

Then , I finish my tuition today.


My mum was crazy.  She call me go my grandmum house with train. zZ

Oh My God.  How could I?

I never step to Pudu railway station.  Even the direction to make us confuse enough.

Just follow the direction people go to. Yes we did , but wrong.


we'd our own touch n go , it was convenient.

Then where we go , just scan , no need buy ticket all this all that.

Sri Petalling train we should follow , but there are too chaos enough for us to get wrong.

But we got in to AMPANG SENTUL TIMUR trainz.

We should have a turntable at station Chan Sow Lin , but we didn't.

The we miss to Miharja station.

My quick witted enough to make up my mind that we should get down from here.

Okay , go opposite side and get back to Chan Sow Lin station.

The reporter of station said that we need to had a turntable at Chan Sow Lin  in platform 2A.

Wah , The difference too big in this train and that.

The reporter of that train never attentive enough to tell us that .

The wrong for first time was too much.


I taught the turntable for those who go KL.

But I was wrong , and luckily I'm wrong.  You right.

Yeah , Finally we reach our station.

I'm really lost there , I don't know the directions.

And luckily you there with your determination , and perceive.

And then we're reached my grandmum house safely.


Back to my house.

Everyone was waiting for dinner. Mum bought it , but far to enough.

My house all boys , all with a huge stomach ( Eat many , NOT fat.)


Afterbath , feel relieve and gonna lie down at everywhere as I'm clean!

When I'm dirty , I don't like to touch anythings. And feel just pollute the space , the things.


And later on was keep an eye on tv of Lord of the ring.

And sit infront on PC update blog and take a look at facebook as these days the line never compromise to.


I'm tired enough and now was 2am.

Its time for sleep and tomorrow I've tuition!

ARGH.

I'm busy enough.

But only this I had no time to care no bodies , to care nothings.

Close my eyes . Sleep tight.