After a huge challenge

Is this a part of living?
I'm lost so clear.

Haix.

What should I do and what shouldn't do?

I had planned my whole holiday so well , so perfect.


But I do nothing here.


I never imagined that my time after SPM was so slow.


Slow enough to make me thinked that I can do everything , slow enough to let me thinked I still got MUCH TIME to do my list , to check out my list , to LIST my list.


A week.

Now already a week after SPM.

But I still don't know what to do.

Not yet celebrate , didn't have a proper farewell party.

I still wanna say goodbye.



Suddenly , that NS was OUT OF THE LIST.

I must get my job fast.

Wednesday , I gonna start my work.


My first part time job.

Payment was pretty less.


I CARE , I do.

I'm keep trying to find another job to instead of this.

I want money , I want it so bad.

Who don't want it?


Haix.

That job made me rush , runs against time.

I wan hang out , I planned all my time for fun , entertaiment.

I don't want feel that all the time before was just waiting.


Now , first time ever .

My mum caught dengue fever.

I do nothing for that.

I still waiting eat , watching my drama.

Don't know why , I know sometime I will take over it , but not now absolutely.

Tomorrow mayb?


I don't know.

My list didn't have a space prepare for accident.

But accident was only know how to occupied other space.

HAIX.


I lost my way.

Human born to be strong , stronger.

But sometime , I feel I'm weaker in time.

I'm fear , scaring of.


Sleep now. Goodnitex.

I must get this night well.

As my plan.