ONLY ME?

ONLY ME ONLY ME ONLY ME.
STILL DON'T KNOW?

How life suppose to be after SPM?


I been planing it so well , so well.


Working , gaining experience of life.

Enjoying , knowing another dimension of life.


Getting , becoming more mature , resolution and even decisive.


This how the way I plan for myself.


Never declined any job.

Never cared about the job type.

Try to be enjoyable.


Now , I had almost done apart of them.


Somehow , Why do I still had time to care for those nothing?


I hate judgement.



Any judgement of yours' naive , idiocy.


I just don't know , do I need explain to those person pass by my life?



They are not my friend , they are only your 's friend.


Why should I cared so.


Who are me?


Why should I need to think about THEIRS.


They had their ways , their life so.



I don't believe the world would be so EASY.


I don't believe that love can FIGHT everything.


I don't believe yours' believing.


I would never stop , unless I'm rebound.


Don't read please , I pray? I beg?


Here is mine.


Go your far far away.




Oh.


Suddenly , a thinking thrill through my brain.

That was very before.


They want you chose 1 from 2 right.


You chose them.

You chose her.


I'm just for backup , I'm just for in case , I'm just for replace.


I'm , I'm.

What would I be?

Who am I?


Don't fake , don't act.


Past tense doesn't means it not TRUE!


Past tense doesn't means nothing.


Past tense doesn't only MEANS PAST.



You could see how past had made you.


Who are you in past?


Even now.


What still can be trust?


My word had been leakage , from you.

To OTHERS.


I don't know you EVEN.



You had friends.


I don't HAVE.


Everything I bear myself.

I cried no sound.


I wet my pillow.


I waked with eye swelling.


I laugh at yesterday night foolish.


Who would be silly for the second time?


Why I'm still silly.


Why I'm still FOOL.


Why what you can , but I CAN'T.


Why I'm such weak.


This WAS the way how I MEAN COWARD?


2 chose 1?


I'm the rejected.


I remembered the feeling so clear , so clear.


How you mean me?


Why you keep choosing without any responsible.

Without fear , without thinking.


Why you're right all the time.


Why only YOU can be the SELECTOR?



I remembered that every time you choose.

I remembered that every time I'm fail to be chosen.


I remembered remembered remembered.


So clear so clear so clear.


WHY WHY WHY.


That's much I don't want to know , That's much I REMEMBERED.


How lies been so sparking , How liars been so charming.



How tomorrow gonna be?


Wake from wet pillow , open that's silly and swelling eyes , a very very fake smile.


A swelling face too.


How I gonna cover up that.


Everything so clear , but I still need to say DON'T KNOW.


HAHA


I DON'T KNOW DON'T KNOW.