I just barely accpet it.

I wonder. How can so much change within a year?

What I'm used to be what I'm totally not.


I'm being completely opposite character and personality.


Why.


Last year I could be so happy while I'm lacking of friends but now I feel I'm defeat and so lonely lacking of the same thing.


I hate that feeling.


Why cant I just rely on my own?


I hate everything now.


I grumble. And yet never get satisfy and feeling blessed nor bliss.


I hate this extreme changes.


Everything fuck up and not occur in the way they suppose to be.


Everything just out of control run out of mind.


I couldn't hold it for a little while longer.


I just barely breath.  With the weakest sign of living.


I'm barely living and doing nothing.


Ain't nothing could help it.


I just lost. I felt lost. What to do?


Someone please tell me. I never be in such way.


Not emotional stuffs. Just everything fucked up.


And I just barely accept it.