My heart was pounding in a amazing speed. Butterflies rose in my stomach. And when my friend's phone rang , my heart miss a beat. I was holding my breath while my friends snatched the phone away and checked the message for me. That was such an important message that decide how my day and even how my next semester will gonna be. While before that I never want to send this message. I never want to know my results. I guessed it was bad. It could be bad. It's bad. That's it. I knew what I exactly done in my paper. I emptied a lots than I ever expect of. I never think it could be this hard until I don't have a confirm correct answer for a particular question. I don't know what this moment felt like , while still hope for the best. I kept on imagining what kind of results I'll get and what's my reaction after that. I think that's what everyone do before they got their results. And this would be the most nervous part that anything could happens. Months of hardworking paid off or realizing you study in the wrong ways. Another side was, laziness lead to inferior result or even worst.
It's quite few weeks I didn't update my blog. It's not I didn't blog at all , I was still constructing my post since I'm not good in English and I want to improve it. Well , this is what exactly happened and means a lots to me!
Well , I had to admit that I was being so so lazy. Whether to catch up my left out chapters or revisions. I was misgoverning and lead to slack and wasting my time sleeping and playing. I was already late to intake my Pre-U course due to my National Service , but still I'm slacking to the maximum. Not to mention I attended my class with my empty mind and also a stupid brain , while I'm asleep sometime during the lessons or anytime I feel tired. This was bad. Yes , although I behave it since I was 15 years old. This was my most not expecting results announcement. If I get a bad results then it proved few ugly facts of me. 1st I was not hardworking enough and didn't pull out all the stops and may lead to regret. 2nd was I'm stupid and unmanageable. 3rd I'm nothing.
My friend's phone screen lighten up. I took a seriously deep breath like I'm never breath before. My friends quick hands snatched the phone from my trembling cold hand , left me aside to catch myself back. They read the message and scream. All others classmates notice what's exactly happening here. My message readers said :" It was good! So SO GOOD!" This sentence dramatically further accelerates my heart beat. Wow , I couldn't afford that type of beat in this young age so! I quickly grab the phone again. This time my hands wasn't cold anymore which instead of hot tempered due to secretion of adrenaline increase rate of blood flow. I took a quick glance on it. What I saw was just B A- B- C. Oh my god , I passed all with an A-! How great! And that was chemistry! I though I was going to fail that particular subject cause I answer nothing! My heart was screaming so! My B was moral studies which my school just had 1 guy got A- for entire pre U course students. While B- was my biology which my school don't have a single A or A- for those biology course students. The last C(barely Passed) was my ever dislike subject - Maths.
I had to say that my results was not good at all. But if comparing to my effort , I was so excel instead. I was being lazy and stupid. And which I had to admit that I was truly truly extremely lucky this time able to pass it all even with an A-. Thanks everyone who helped me along the ways while there's still long way to go.
Results announcement day . All I remembered was how nervous and disappointed most of people get and how excited least of people get their desire results. I think this is what results announcement means by. Everyone's heart ups and downs. Tears and joys at the same time or don't. It's complicated after all. This time , I'm satisfy while the fact that I have to retake 2 subject in the very end of my semester 3.
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