idiots before

Its been long time .

I never come back , I'm not free , I'm busy.


I'm trying to escape.


From my heart , from my feelings.

I hate to face it.


Yes , I'm always whatever , nevermine , its doesn't matter.


Sometimes , it really did.

But sure for that , I'm blur, I'm not sober , I'm stupid , I'm useless.


Back to here , I feel I'm enough stong to face it.

Although my body was scars of wounds strung together like beads.

I'm hurts before , now , soon in the future so.


Why I need trying to escape?


Now , I have no reasons to be weak.



Sometimes I can be the useless things as you said.

But out of sometimes , in other times , I'm not the one you say , I'll not be the one you can say , Your said just nothing.



Its dissapointed .


I'm foolish , I don't have any wisdom. But only in before.


I'm promise to myself.


Because of you , I found my foolish , my weakness.

Because of you , I'm always nothing.

Because of you , I'm always pretend to happy.



Nows , all gonna bye bye.


Before I'm rolling in the deep , even cant pull myself out of that.

Even how strive I was , I'm just like set fire to the rain.


The things you said , that was never true never true , and the game you play , you were always win.

Now ,  all gonna change.


My eyes should be brighter , enough to see you , enough to see myself , catch myself.


Haha.


I know I'll be monstrous . 

Sometimes I also feel that person who are alone so , but now its really totally change.

You have much friends , so you'll never try this.

Good luck to you.


I really hope its was the last station for me.

I'm really hurt enough. I'm really strong enough.


Like my thinks , as your said.


It was before , beautiful which hide the uglies.