Just let it gonna be.

Argh.

I'm not here for long.

I cant be here always altough I really wants to.

Al the unhappiness leave here , all the trues here , all the grumble here.


My life wasn't that bad.

But when I think somethings really bad , I had no ways to comfort myself , to make myself comfort.

Now my brain full of feelings , rich of thinkings even I cant really catch my true feelings , my true thinkings , how my next step?

What will be my next action to withstand?

I specially on my bro laptop just for update here , feels hollow.  Like nothing I really had , I cant catch anythings.


Everythings flashback.  Every hurt begin.

Again and again.


I'm busy , I had no time no flashback , to catch , to seperate , to filter.


Enough enough.

Pui Kee ,  you're flexible wherther be strong or be weak , just a option then you'll had your own way.


Just like exam test ,  ABCD , sometimes even in structure or essay.

I know myself well . Too well until I indulge myself , to being weak.


I already choose my way , no right and false.

Just walk through it and pay a dear price.


I'm okay right now , feel much and much better.


Tomorrow must be the best!  Perform for pesta angpao and play a role in my drum team.

The welcome party must be nice!

My first time and last time.

If follow my plan , This may will be the last perform for me.


I don't really know what feelings is that.

Future is unknown , everthing is unknown , even tomorrow , what gonna going to happen?


Good luck everyone , especially myself , be strong and taugh.

Gambateh!  tmr will be the best.



Argh , Not get use to mybro laptop z.

How long I type this?