I'm splitting.
A part of my mind tell me you couldn't do that , while another part keep insist to me you have to do that.
That is a choice.
That I have choose and I should've stay for it and fight for it.
However , now I'm doing nothing but upsetting about my bloody result.
I'm stress up.
And seriously I'm defeat.
Too many failure come together and my heart's capacity is so limited for that.
I have no other way left but to score it.
I have to make myself roll in the local university or whatever.
That's the only purpose I fight for it.
But now there's a limited of time.
Why I'm so incapable ?
Even the experiment today I could fail so many times.
I can mix wrong solution I can forget what solution was that.
I'm so fail.
But why.
Why I'm the only one?
I don't know how to carry on.
Seriously.
I have no idea but seeing others study so damn hard and I'm doing nothing made it the worst.
I don't understand the chapters.
Those key words make me fucking confuse.
And the math was super fucking hard that we have to prepare for in case something out of your syllabus.
Wow. Something like how many was the diameter of universe ?
Which force us to study INFINITY.
And those general knowledge and news just make some of the decoration.
And why no Malays take STPM?
If you guys take STPM then the marking must not be that harsh.
But I don't wan to get good great because of that but now I'm seriously need everything to make it.
Can I corrupt the examiners?
I cant bear it seriously.
It was nothing more than suffering and hell.
Every night I'm screaming here. So damn fucking loud.
What's the point you making your life so hard?
IN ORDER TO BE A BETTER MAN?
In the better future?
BULLSHIT.
Malaysia was never a good place.
My PA teacher everyday tell us what a hell we are living in but yet we feel blissful.
Fuck everything.
Fuck the government make this all kind of bullshitting.
This is all mean by education.
I could be nothing.
I have to do it.
I have to.
I just have to.
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