It's very beginning of the 31st December of 2013
It's 3am right now.
I have no sleepy feeling.
But I do feel my head is getting heavier.
Hmm.
What to blog about?
How about the hope for upcoming 2014?
I think it doesn't start well.
I have to back to school life in a bit. the second day of 2014.
It's too soon too soon.
I don't get enough of rest and holidays as well as fun.
Ya. So now I'm lack of every element of happiness.
And other than study stuff I have a part time job also in the very beginning of January.
It's the last year part time job.
It does count as a very easy job as compare to my last part time event job (BBW book fair).
And I suck it up because I think I can bear it even though during my study stuff begin again.
I just have to be there in every friday saturday and sunday in january.
The tough part was my study.
I can't have time to tuition.
And focus on homework as well.
And the next semester need much focus to as well.
I'm so worried that I can't manage THE IMPORTANT one.
Hmm.
I hope I will be a very hardworking and passion people for everything I love and interest.
I seem to lost the passion and interest in my life.
I have no sport I have no game I have no hobbies as well.
What's my life all about?
Sometimes I do feel shame when people ask me what's your hobbies.
What you frequently do when you have free time?
How do you prefer to spend your leisure time?
Oh well. I love to shopping , I love fancy and branded stuff.
Oh god. That sounds so girly.
Erm. I do love sport. I love badminton and jogging.
But my skills was another shame things to tell.
And I jog like for one kilometer.
Yeah. This was the things I like to do but I'm so weak in.
I love to read novel but somehow I don't really understand what's it about.
I love drama but I never watched its' complete series.
And basically I hate everything what I'm doing now.
I love blogging somehow I'm too lazy and quite lack of urge to update it.
It's not because of my life is nothing.
It's because my life is all same , and they just start with the same way and all around it.
It'd made me feel so endless and less suprise for what whatever coming in school.
It do make me wan to escape and never miss any chance to have a getaway.
I do hang out with any of my friends who asked me for it.
Ya.
I keep thinking that my life is pathetic compare to others college students.
I knew that I was not.
But I just wan people to feel I'm a interesting person if you really knew me and my life is terrifying amazing.
I want people feel that my appearance was so dumb but there's so much more than that.
Ya. I'm kind of fake person.
Apparently , that's my own problem.
Something's wrong inside me.
I have to deal with myself.
My academic achievement is my top concerned about right now.
I knew I didn't do it great along the way.
And I knew I just merely reach the level.
Be in a Pre U programme is all about your score at the end of the day.
They just simply see how well your score in academic studies and curricular activities then just place you accordingly.
And if you want to get any famous university then YOU HAVE TO SCORE IT WELL.
And do it better than others.
That's what all about.
WE'RE ALL POOR.
We compete for the same thing. That's it a seat in the government university.
A mouthful of rice in this filthy rich society.
Ya. All the hard work is a non guarantee deposit.
Your investment may not be pay off.
So we have to do it well.
We have to score it.
Somehow I'm the type of person feeling very fortunate even with a PASS.
How can I do it now?
It's not PASS right now. It's a SCORE.
It's like not Cs but As.
Yeah. That's kind of thing I wish the most to happen in the upcoming 2014.
And with the repeat paper(s) which really drives me crazy.
It's like singing the Human (Christina Perri) which is the top of my favourite song now.
I can do it I can do it I get through it.
Works hard throughout the whole year.
Then next year this time.
I would be freaking free and craving for job.
Yeah. Which I will continue the story when the time's reach.
And Guess so I would always be here to update as well as my time is allow and my urge is enough to.
It's 4am right now.
I'm like writing a long essay.
If there's a setting of time , I guess I'm running out of it and completing my last paragraph as well with super flying messy words.
And I'm freaking nervous and run out of idea , good words and attractive sentences.
Yeah. That's kind of my essay during exam.
However , it ends well sometimes.
Which means I have to ends unexpectedly sometime.
2014. Please be TERRIFYING AMAZING.
Ohya. Another big thing to be mention.
I'd hope I learned how to drive manual car in a very soon.
I didn't manage to drive even once since the holidays start.
And I'd regret when it comes to end.
I hope I go to my date by myself.
Not by parents and car pool anymore.
And others would stick to me if I could manage to go anywhere by myself.
But the main problem is WHY THE HELL AM I STILL SO WEAK IN DRIVING.
Hmm. In everything seems like.
I'm still afraid of cars and road.
I'm still afraid when it comes to a slightly slanting road.
Because it's a manual car.
People don't drive manual car anymore.
WHO SAID.
The weak.
I could do so much things if I can manage to go somewhere by myself.
Yeah.
2014.
Coming yeah.
Goodnight.
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