Rushing morning

               

I'm feeling excited now. But deep in down I'm exhausted. I barely sleep last night even though I have so limited sleep in the night before. I think it was 4 hours. Average of 4 hours sleep per day after exhausted work and addicted fun game. I think it's the very first time I blog at this hour. 7pm. It's my dinner and drama time usually but now everything seems a little bit changes. Having a little while downpour made everything so regenerate but I feel more sleepy. It works like a berceuse to me in no exception moment. I could emotionally tired and physically exhausted to everything just because it's raining. I can be upset in one second even the last I was happy whatever. So I hate raining days and cloudy days that I couldn't resist any of it.




                      Since ever I'm working in the weekend before Chinese New Year , I'm more mentally tired that I'm keeping fail to manage my very own business. I'm no longer focus in my studies. Meanwhile, although I can still manage to catch up those chapters , but I no longer can finish my homework with quality. It's not that I don't have a single time to do it , it's just I'm so lack of impetus to move my bloody hands to take it out and deal with it. Well, last night , while I still having my Math T and Biological exercises , instead of doing them , I played those unprofitable computer games. Going on and on until 12.30am. "Oh god , they're still lying on my table in the stack form." Screw me. What I'm doing. Why I'm wasting my time. I though I could manage it very very well. Okay , start doing it.



                       I was starting with Math T homeworks as I knew that would be more easy compare to bio one and it was more urgent! That's what last minutes I could do. Well , I didn't finish it at last cause that's too much I don't know how to solve and I felt I'm doing in the wrong way. Perhaps that was another part of me calling me off to bed. So , I ended up on bed by almost 1.15. And I roll and roll and roll for almost the whole night. "Why , I though I was sleepy." "Maybe I should face my to my left side." Then I rolled on to the left. Counting sheeps. That was a tough night that thought had invade to the very deep of me.




                       My alarm rang by the time of 5.45am. "Fuck , I just closed my eyes , don't me?" I'm frustrated and wonder in the morning. "Just more 5 minutes." Obviously it was more than that. I almost shock awake. "Oh crap! This HAPPENED AGAIN! How many times I have to been through this!" Okay now I'm shock and still frustrated. Rushing all the way to bathroom. Brushing my teeth and washing my face roughly then wear on my uniform. Mum didn't have any attempt to wake up. So my breakfast gonna be more instant and a combination of dry things. Most of it was cookies , crackers and biscuits. I have no time to boil the water up to have my lovely hot chocolate that so perk me up. "Urgh, my exercises of last night still scattered around. Why don't I keep them last night before I sleep?" Everything was messy.





                      Then everything seems like done by just a second that I'm able to got up my friend car by 7 sharp although it's kinda rush for him to rush all over to school on time. This is what usually happen to me in the morning. However , after all those rush and frustrated , the morning breeze could really placate me and the tender chilly breeze could just calm me down. The coordinate was nice , and the sunrise along the way. Colours changing. And golden rise up. After all that was about studies , to be in class and laboratory on time. Then assignment and projects and presentation as well. Day started.