midnight post

                      It's another post in midnight. I'm so sicked of being late sleep but I'm just simply fascinate by this wonder twinkle stars and a dim moon that being ignored and half covered by the fogs and clouds. However they made a beautiful tempting symphony. That's why I'm so awake till now. It's 3.30 am and I'm gonna wake up early and get to work tomorrow. Oh no. It's soon. Another reason for staying so up late it's because I'm simply hyper now. Having a great talk that very inspire me with my best friend. It do lead me fall into deep thoughts that I should completely regret for wasting my life now. Hmm.



                      It's more than a simply chat and gossip session. We're getting less and less to discuss about someone. We're now discuss mostly the big one. They're really someone who changed the world by little bit. Yeah. We're being so small and tiny now. But everyone knows it's the way to being huge and magnificent. The world is changing every minute and so we're. I wonder who else I will become in my future. Yet , I'm so worry about it. I'm afraid and looking for it. I know I'm making it but either in the wrong or right way. Like everyone else. It's nothing to be done and change. It just happen.



                      2014 , everyone of us is going into a new life after a short hibernation of either working or relaxing or both in time. Everything started back in the way it suppose to be. And it went great so far. The mountain of homework that I'll never climb until the top and the studies that never be done. It's exhausted somehow but this is the way how they should be. How I suppose to have in this risky pre U course that manage by government. You know what I mean , Malaysians. Being chinese and study in government program is really really hard. Sometime hard just can't give an exact describe to it. So I'm speechless now cause even no word can describe. It's the feeling of whatever you've done , you trying and work so fucking damn hard to score your goal , they will not be done. We're chinese. They just simply give us the damn thing we don't want even you have flying colours in your resume. It just that , Malaysia. We born in it , We live in it and We're believing in it. How pathetic it was.



                     Okay , I should be the one adjust myself to fit into it instead of grumbling so much. It'll not gonna change. The systems is fixed , for eternity. We do disappointed and get used to it ALREADY. HUH. I'm kind of abreact now. Whatever. I just have to do what I have to do. That's it. Study so damn fucking hard although it will not end up well.


                     Everyday is a big big day. And now I have the feeling that I will get sick tomorrow. I ate plenty of chilli today. I'm regretting now. And being so frustrated by my bro for not commit his promise. And today is saturday. I'm working. That's all. I slept pretty late this morning. And I'm so sure that I'll be freaking tired in upcoming monday. Sunday , Please rock it.







                               Now the fogs is starting to disperse. I'm going off now. Goodnight. 4.00am