My very first speaking

          I don't have a constant mood and timing to blog about. Even of a constant topic and moment. So now , I'm stealing a moment to be here while my bro is going to fetch my another bro from tuition. So this is it. He may in the way back so I better be fast to split it out.


          I have my very first speaking in this particular year or this particular level of education. I'd bet it was the worst time ever of myself. I was unprepared. I was given the task which I'm not into it and it's been a very hard time to think off the point. At last, my name had been calling so I just get out of my seat to stand in front of the whole class. My mind went blank. All I know was I'm gonna die so hard now. Feeling like being shame in front of the whole class when I'm run out of point  and stand there like an idiot , or completely fail clown. Well , there isn't fun at all.


          Teacher ask for volunteer but no one. However, I got the very strong feeling within my heart that I'll be calling by her. But still , I crossed my hands and prayed hard. "Okay , Number 2!" "Oh Shit!" It's me!! I knew it! I knew my feeling was right! I should suggest 4 letters and let my mum buy it at magnum 4d!


           The tittle was the one I most not interest in and don't have an exactly solid point. I'm not confident in that. So I just went in front of the whole class and start. Apparently it went bad. Worst even. I'm running out of point and just stood there. And I'm still thinking of the examples. I looked at the eyes of my classmate. Hopefully they'll give me some hint or help. Unfortunately , I had non neither they. And I'm calling off. "So I emphasize that knife will be useful along the trip , Thanks You." " You just said about 1 minute not even 1 minute 20 seconds yet and you're calling off now?" "Yes." and I went back to my seat.


            Okay. I knew it's the very first time and I do allow to make mistakes. However this is not the reasons. So after that I knew where am I and working out of it. *trying to*. Next teacher call us to have our group discussion and the new task have been given. We have to get used to our group members so we could help each others out at the moment. I wonder my real group member ain't there because they were from other class. So will it be worse cause I don't know them even. Hopefully I will get rid of it and get a ban that I desired.


           So basically now I'm doing everything in English except in talking. I will start it eventually. I don't really remember what up next but this was the highlight of the day. Standing up right infront of the whole class need a huge bravery. And I end up my hands trembling and butterflies in my stomach.