Tough week

              It's a tough and look week. As my school having replacement class on this particular Saturday , I have to go while after that have to rush all the way to my working outlet. It's 1am now. Tomorrow I'm having school and working and I'm still so up to here. I can't stand for it. My capacity had hit the limitation. There's much more than I can bear. I thought it could be easy after Wednesday as I'm free of tuition. Huh. This getting tougher. I knew it. I sense it.



              I feel it. I admit I'm a sensitive person. I sense it. I'm just in the process of making sure of it. Well , maybe I'm wrong. I'm so wrong being at certain point. Maybe I'm starting it. But I didn't meant to hurt you , hate you and unlike you. That's the fact and I'm saying it.  I didn't make it or mislead it. So , it'd bother me if you hate me. Cause I care about you and I thought you were my close friend. Well , now you turned out not to be and I'm completely out of your list.



             I can feel the stress now. Apart of studies, there's still a lots coming and a lots of problem. Just like my bowling club. I'm being the treasurer. Well , I have to say that I didn't have any account skill base. Currently they're designing a new T shirt and arrive soon as tomorrow. I was been informed I have to take it back. Well , people knew that I was living in a find apartment. I have limited space that even fit my own stuffs. I have explained so clear that I DON'T HAVE SPACE FOR THAT. I DON'T HAVE MY OWN ROOM SO PLEASE DON'T ASK ME TO PUT IN MY ROOM. AND PLEASE DON'T ASSUME THAT EVERY PEOPLE LIVE IN DOUBLE STOREY AS LIKE YOUR OWN. People are unbearable.


              I'm so frustrated. And next was my friendship things. A LOTS this year. Since I'm broke with my girlfriend while I feel I'm breaking my other friendship as well. I don't know why which make this a tougher year apart of the stressful study circumstance. People start to ignore me (they're always). So basically now I'm all alone. I'm so bother. Why do I care so much. What I'm now. This is not what I'm used to be. I don't know. I'm lost. This is a really tough week. While you have know the truth that all your worries is not only a worries at the same time they're something real happening without your conscious. I'm vulnerable.



             I used to call people don't care. And look what I'm now. I couldn't convince myself.