It was a past

            

After the peak week full of jobs and studies was the Chinese New Year. There's no way that I couldn't admit it was more than boredom. It was so boring. I hate this when everyone was having fun but me. It's the tradition of family. It's because my dad tradition that completely out of the decade. We got so bore. He was keep running around over his place. We are the son he barely have. He don't care about us yet he didn't plan anything for us. I just hate it.



             I was gambling and gambling. I'm having bad luck though. Apart from that , what I really want to talk about was myself. The really me. I was so struggling throughout the whole chinese new year. I was such a faker , liar , jerk. I did bad things without any realization and yet keep on blaming others. I was all right though. I'm losing friends now. I know. I'm sorry to my old friends who really stay with me but I didn't keep it and I was end up alone like now. It was awkward when we met. It was completely nothing but a "HI". It's so meaningless. Sorry. I really am. I mean it. It was a seriously devil part of me.



              I was never knew that I'm such a person but after all the throw back reviewed. It was such a blade that strike through my heart. In a sudden , my heart was bleeding. I'm truly guilty for what I've did before. I believe that's not a seriously big deal. And I wish so much to join back you guys as soon as possible. It's not I'm study in the different school that means I'm better or other things else. I know you would never see this but I want to let it out so much. Rumors does make harm. And now I believe how strong it was. Spoiling my Chinese New Year mood. Anyway how this post is more than enough to remind myself not to let the devil control my mind. That's all. For now , I'm trying to keep my people to stay in mine. That's all I need to do.