In the night like this

For the belated national dog day

    It has been quite a few weeks I didn't blog. I was busy keeping up myself with all those homeworks and revisions. 


     Exams are getting nearer and it's like a doom day for most of us. I'm retaking those past semester subject and it happens to be hard on me though I've understood so well before. 


     It'll be all over after the doom day. The problem for me now is I can't even sure that I would make it till the doom day. I was tiring and sleeping all around. My physiological clock is such a mess. I sleep during lesson and almost anytime when I want to do my revision. How pathetic it is.



       Sometimes , people do matter a lot. I care too much most of the time. It brings me nothing and I can't help continue caring it. I'm just a mess. I screwed up too many things.



        I don't know what I should feel like in the moment like this. The cool winds blow in the middle of the night. Shops and restaurents has closed and the streetlights and stray animals are the only thing remains. So silence that cricket and those unknown little creatures would gather up and play their own harmonical quartet. The light pollution has gone so damn serious I couldn't see a single star. Hmm, probably it's just because of cloudy. I hope. Everyone was sleeping , soundly. My playlist strike at Tears and Rain from one of my favourite and admired singer-- James Blunt. His voice was such amazing and the calmness is rather overwhelming.
I feel comfort , and so I blog.


          Some memories are the pain in the eyes. How wonderful it was when you're being with your best company and now you're all stranger who struggle to say hello with each and acting like you've never meet or never know each other. For the time being , I thank you for those precious moment which now was the-pain-in-the-eyes-memories. I always feel glad I have had you guys though I've no idea who exactly I'm thinking right now. Those faces just appear and I'm not focusing on a single person. I guess.



            People come and go , people stay and leave. Wondering if ever other people have a thought of me. I leave no scar , leave no trace , and leave no hurt. While other people do it all the time to you. You can't blame cause you just simply care too much.


           What should I feel now? In the middle of night like this. I should probably go and sleep. I have school tomorrow which appear to be heavy lessons. I lose the passion in science. I don't know why but it just happens. All the study was just memorizing , and understanding. And the loads was total a few of dictionaries. I've no think recently. Constantly using up my brain capacity memorising and understanding. It's too much and my brain seems like already full. I forget what I've memorized in the next minute.


           In the night like this , I should sleep. I should let go of everything I'm feeling now.