Brainstorming session

    We were given a topic about friendship. Do you agree that friendship is the most valuable thing in life? We were encouraged to brainstorm the idea whether we're agree or else and elaborate our points as well.

     In that particular moment , I've asked myself not only once , whether I believe that friendship is still the most valuable thing in life like how I used to believe in or it doesn't. What's friendship itself for me? I mean yes , definitely , friendship is the most valuable thing in life but I have to assure it's true friendship before I said that.

     After that I choose to stand on the disagree side. I did that it's not because I don't believe in friendship , but I have so many fake friendships who used me or whatever else. I don't really mind but somehow it wrecked me up.  I were used to be believe things are good , people are nice , friends are valuable , people treat me the way how I treat them. But now , it hurts so much to believe in goods.

     I used to have a lots of friends and I'm happy having them as a friend and they treat me so. At least , I thought so. I do. I was naive I was so young to believe that and somehow I live with it. And after graduate , we were seperated. And we barely see each others. They have a lots of gathering and birthday celebration , I was invited. They doesn't take me as one. People didn't think as the way I thought. I was on of them , I thought. And somehow it strike me at the middle of sleepless night. I'm nobody's nobody out of a sudden. I though I was and I wasn't , even once.

      After that , I learn to live with my own , I learn to be selfish , I learn prioritizing myself rather than anyone. You cant blame me for being that cause you never know how much it hurt. All the while you thought you're one of them but they've never taken you as the way you taken yourself. So that's it. I'm done. For that last time I do care for you guys.

      At the mean time , I knew what I have and I appreciate them.  I do have a couple of best friends and thank to them , I still believe in friendships , I still believe some people will treat you as the way you treat them. You know who you are and thanks for being there , not always , not everytime , not anytime but you just there. 

     I will be taking muet exam this Saturday. I should've prepared instead of everything. I'm late now , I should get some sleep. Goodnite. My beliefs.